The life of a sixteen year old

So, well, this is me.
I'm not everything I want to be
There is still some work to do
Till I can be with you
I read over my mistakes
I see all the fakes
you know, the people who said they would be there
But they where only to breathe your air
Yes alright fine whatever, being with him may hurt
But it's worth all this work.
So mom doesn't think I got it right,
there's just no reason to keep up this fight.
So if I let a tear roll then may you look away
My past guilt and shame shouldn't be felt in present day
Yes ok fine this must to be admitted,
When I was 15 I cheated.
I didn't really care at all
Thus took my cursed fall.
And yes after all that I left him time and time again
Just left him there to cry alone in the rain
But I couldn't ever let him go
My body acts' quick but my mind is slow
I'm like a little kid shopping with her mom, look but don't touch
Hell, you know when you where little you did that way to much.
You brake it you buy it. But I didn't want that heart
Still, I would rip it apart.
I can make a guys voice crack just with a smile!
And that number the jock gave me, no, I wont dial.
So well yeah this is me.
I aint everything I'm ment to be.
Still have some work to do.
Till I'm good enough for you.