Lost-in-thyme

We've been through it all. The rise and our fall Yet you stood at my side even with my selfish pride. You know my secrets all of my please-keep-it's There is nothing you don't know Nothing I haven't let go You held me still That's how I know it's real. But right now, What have I done? Where did I go wrong? A simple tickle fight- but it turned into a real fight. I don't remember what was said... and that right there, is my dread.

She stood in line, twisting her short hair. Every now and then she would glance down and the scars on her wrist and arm. She would quickly cover them up.    She was waiting in a very long line, to see Santa. Not so much a little girl anymore, but she had one more wish. Slowly the line would move and the giggles from the young children around her made her feel like she could smile once more, guilt free. Parents looked at her with almost hateful glances. Why would a young adult, wearing converse skinny jeans and a lighter leash be in line for Saint Nick? What on earth is this girl thinking?          Be still she waiting on. Not so much a lit

Is it late or early? My vision is still blurry But I will hold my breath and take a step Am I running yet again? Trying to get away from the pain? Am I really ok in my skin? Might as well stab my ego with a pen Let this beautifully ugly world sink in So this is where I begin. I'll take it one step at a time To keep my own mind I have nothing for my own I burned the bridge to my home Now I start in this mess and try to help the world progress But at the end of the day My words are in the wind, blowing away So I will just hold my breath and take another step

I promised to stay by your side i never thought I would of lied let the voices in my head drag me to the devils bed and all I could do was not cry when you begged me not to say goodbye No matter how my veins may bleed the shame, grief and regret will never recede I use the blade, you use the bottle we both hit this world full throttle But I'm not moving on cause without you, all hope is gone

If I were to run away I would walk along the rail way The sun would rise and fall In my heart I would hold it all The wishes the star hold the stories in books, untold I would walk till I met the sea and hear the secrets it has for me I would join the circus and fly On the trapeze all would turn an eye Like I had wings on my back I would sore but then I wouldn't need to be there anymore I would run away yet again but this time not from the pain I would run to feel the rain I would embrace true gain the one where you lose and it grants you knowledge and with that I would learn again, to fall off the edge and again I would run just for the fun

I never met you But I loved you I never held your tiny body But it doesn't mean I'm not sorry I miss what we will never have As a mother, I probably woulnd've been bad... I only wish I could of had the chance to feel you kick Or in the early morning gotten sick Cameron my child, my sweet heart the world ripped us apart But I'll see you one day when I too pass away Then I will count your fingers and toes and plant a kiss on your nose I miss you more than I can explain it can only be a mothers pain. One day I will be there I promise my dear

The wind whispers in my ear His smell draws me near My heart is in my throat on every breath I choke I know he isn't there but I feel him in the air It is stronger this time of year when all holy's eve draws near I open my eyes to light a cigarette maybe the taste of him I will forget... Begging that his touch wont leave just yet The closer Howloween is the closer he'll get

I hate that I could love you and there's nothing I could do I am happy where I'm at It's a good place at that But I still wonder about your kiss What did I really miss? It's useless to think this way I don't matter to you anyway But if you let me I would make you believe There's more to me than my past if we had tried, I would've made it last...

Skin on skin, on my bare chest I close my eyes and focus on your breath I feel your pulse under your skin As the passion like a fire grows within You hold my awe struck gaze as on my skin your fingers graze Your lips touch my skin, oh so soft sending my body and heart aloft You are unlike the rest I know from how my heart beats under my breast You came so close to giving up the chance but here we are, intertwined in this dance When morning comes in your arms I will wake and no longer this smile I must fake When I say this love is true, it has everything to do with only you

Roses wilt Flowers fade take the knife at the hilt feel the kiss of the blade A scar will last as the blood dries Punch from the past as your last vain dies Is forever to long? How soon will you run is this even worth a poetic song? Please don't ever be done take my dreams and last hope just don't hang me on the noose of their rope take care of us, please